oh, Consuming Fire!

i have realized just how beautiful and merciful and amazing and holy and infinite and powerful and loving and jealous You are!! actually, i have not realized it, because i could never fully comprehend, but i understand much more than i did before. thank you for putting it on my heart last october to go to passion. i had no desire to go, and then suddenly i knew You wanted me to. the whole experience was such a blessing. to see the way You work through Your servants! over $1 million raised for the poor and needy! and the way You spoke through the speakers to my soul, especially through beth moore and john piper. such wise people, people after Your own heart. and God! my family group! oh, to feel Your presence there! i KNOW You brought our group together for a reason, it was no accident. i know in particular for me, one reason i was placed in that group was to meet stephen and caleb. two boys my age who are on fire for you. such an encouragement to me as a young daughter of Christ to see two brothers who care with all their hearts for their sisters in Christ and for their Savior! all a part of the way You've been healing my heart (:
and nothing could be more encouraging than to see 20,000+ college students gathered together, praising You with hands lifted high and tears streaming down faces, professing that Your renown is worth sharing, worth making known!

i am completely unoriginal. i am not a lyricist, or a poet, or a writer, but that's not what You called me to be. i find such comfort in the words of Your children and i love to share them with others.

"we were made to find the capstone of our joy in forgetting ourselves in the presence of Greatness. the reason God seeks our praise is not because He won't fully be God if He doesn't get it, it is because we won't be fully happy until we give it. this is GRACE, this is LOVE."

i am so thankful for this new compassion You have put in my heart. i am so excited to get into Your word more, to learn more from this sacred text. i pray that my reasons not be selfish. i want to find my holy ambition, but that's just a side thing. keep my eyes focused on You, not on myself. and i'm so thankful You are focused on Yourself, not me.


"yes, LORD, walking in the way of Your truth we wait eagerly for You, for Your NAME and RENOWN are the desires of our souls." - Isaiah 26:8

in our hearts Lord, in this nation... awakening.