I need a spiritual breather. I feel most complete when I'm in fellowship with You, but once again I've pushed You off. Placed You lower and lower on my list, despite Your love for me, Your sacrifices, and You just being You. I LOVE You. No one would ever do what You've done for me, or do what You continue to do. But that's not the only reason I love You. I love You because You are perfect, because You are powerful, because You are I AM. You are You, and that is more than enough for me. Forgive me for my lack of faith and restore our relationship. I am nothing without You!
I'm also sorry it took me so long to stop and thank You on this day of Thanksgiving. I'm so thankful for all my families - for the family I live with, my Zambian family, my Passion family, my church family, and all my brothers and sister in Christ! I am so lucky to have so many people to care about & to care for me!
I am thankful for friendship. How quickly You answered my prayer for new relationships! I have an amazing iteam group and I'm getting to know more and more people who have a heart for You. So wonderful!
Thank You for all the things I enjoy; for crafting, antiques, games, the outdoors, my hometown, traveling, my baby cat, rain boots, hydrangeas, salt water taffy - the list goes on and on. I appreciate all these things, and I appreciate You even more for creating them and allowing me to enjoy them on this earth.
Thank You for letting me go to Zambia this summer. Amazing people, amazing places, AMAZING GOD. You love Your creations all over the world, and it was so encouraging to see Your children worship You with such passion. How I long to praise You as they do, with no hesitation or self awareness! And thank You for the humbling things I saw. I appreciate my education, my home, and other things so much more than I ever did before. Although I don't fully comprehend why the people of Africa must live the way they do, I still know You are a great God who is control of all things.
And while there are a million other things I am thankful for, perhaps one of the most pressing on my heart is this: THANK YOU FOR NOT ALWAYS GIVING ME WHAT I DESIRE. One year ago I was miserable, caught up in sin and wanting only what I wanted. Thank You so, so much for not allowing me to have what I wanted and for stopping me from continuing with that life any further. How I regret not turning away on my own for You! I am eternally grateful for Your mercy, and I know You have something better in store for me. I am not who I was; that part of me is dead. Thank You for raising this life again and not giving up on me. My GOD is good and worthy to be praise for all things!!
