i feel like i'm failing You.
i feel like i'm a million miles away from wherever it is You are.
i'm telling myself that i'll have plenty of time to delve deep into Your word this summer, or even when i graduate from school, but God, i'm just lying to myself. i need this now, i want this now. i'm not doing well in my classes, i'm not being efficient at work. although i'm doing a million things and never seem to get a break, i'm being lazy. it's like i'm thinking i've got to work on my grades, work, whatever and once it's all accomplished i'll focus on You.
how stupid of me.
haven't i been called to be Your apprentice first? i'm not a nurse, student, etc. who just happens to be a Christian, i'm a Christian who happens to be a nurse, student, etc.
help me find a balance, give me motivation to do my best. as Your daughter, everything i do reflects on who You are.
i want to make You proud.
